[because the wind is high] it blows my mind

ACROSS THE UNIVERSE IS HANDS DOWN THE BEST MOVIE EVER. okay, that's saying a lot.. but seriously, marissa and i saw it last night and i am slightly obsessed. i don't know if it was the music or the cinematography or jim sturgess' stupidly good looks or all of the above, but i basically have not been able to do anything today besides download the songs, read plot synopsis', look at pictures of every actor, watch movie clips, and have vividly euphoric daydreams about the movie. i don't think that's ever happened to me before. sure--eternal sunshine, science of sleep, and amelie all have the artsy qualities but might just lack the little bit of heart and soul provided by the soundtrack. i also love that i've been reminded how much i dig the beatles. ahhhhh, memories. anyway, if you haven't seen it WILL YOU COMMIT TO SEEING IT? satisfaction guaranteed.

bitterheart, tonight.

I FEEL LIKE THIS GUY right now. how bout a song.

The gutter may profess its love, then follow it with hesitation,
But there are just so many of you out there for rent.

A stronger girl would shake this off in flight, and never give it more than a frowning hour
But you have let your heart decide, loss has conquered you.

You've won one too many fights,
Wearing many hats every time.
But you wont win here tonight.

You've made it through the direst of straits, alright.
Can you help it if plain love now seems less interesting?
You haven't changed an ounce in my eyes and I cannot lecture you.

And does anything I say seem relevant at all?
You've been at the helm since you were just five,
while I cannot claim to be more than a passenger.

But you've won one too many fights,
Wearing all of your clothes at the same time.
Let the good times end tonight,
Oh girl, sail her, don't sink her this time.

Just a moment or two from now, not a mind will retain even a trace
Of the thoughts that I struggled to tell, and how our stack of cards just fell.

So settle this once and for all.
The light no longer shows the cracks around my door,
And I have no lantern to light your way home tonight.

You are not some saint who's above giving someone a stroll through the flowers,
You've got so much more to dream of.
Oh girl, sail her, don't sink her this time.

Thanks, James.

A couple things: i hate derek, i hate boys, i'm an idiot, i'm never going to be happy, i'm really sick of humans, i'm still an idiot, i probably should be nicer to people, wishes are for fishes, somebody pinch me.

30 more days! pray for me.

ask if you want to know.

pink geetar

word up. i just got home from eating with james at red robin and my belly is full. we ate a MUDD PIE! it was dope. now james is playing my guitar and he's a swell musician. he's a nice human too. i'm trying to think how else to educate my readers. oh - interpol show on monday, and i could not be more excited. only ten dollars. i will be privileged to be in the presence of derek, alex, ian, hopefully jacob and whoever else wants to come. you come. and tell your friends. look, i gotta go. james is belting out california by rufus wainwright. ONLY LOVE