l o l s o l

one time a guy from efy came up to me and was like,
do you have a twin?? i just saw someone who looked EXACTLY like you!
and i was like, hmm no?
and he was like.. wait, i took a picture
and handed me a piece of paper with this on it:
:)

today is the worst day of my life.

i said goodbye to someone that i love.
it's not just me, i tell you it's the both of us.
and it was hard..
like coming off the pill that you take to stay happy.

today the addie and afton show officially stops airing.
i don't know what i'm going to do with myself
i don't even know what else to say.
RIP.

"i have...

...FELINE ISSUES" - staci lewis

hi, it's me

i figured it was time for an update. i deleted my facebook, so if you want to know what's going on with me.. aside from who's writing on my wall or what my relationship status is, you'll just have to come here.

HELLO, WORLD.

the basics:
i'm still alive.
i'm still in provo.
i still don't have a job.
my brain is healing a little!
my heart is healing too!
afton is in town but she is leaving tomorrow FOR EVERR.
oddly, i am not freaking out. too much.
i am totally obsessed with the olympics.
did you see that stunt mike phelps pulled? <3 nastia
i am starting to feel more like myself.
ie: starting to care about things again,
like bike rides..
health and nutrition..
getting excited for school :)
THE GOSPEL
my home girl staci is moving out but some new qt's named libby and heidi are moving in..
i'll let ya know how that goes.

i guess that's it for now, dear blog friends, hope your lives are beautiful and full of light.

give it to me, charlie

My Father

was a truly amazing man
he pretended to be
rich
even though we lived on beans and mush and weenies
when we sat down to eat, he said,
"not everybody can eat like this."

and because he wanted to be rich or because he actually
thought he was rich
he always voted Republican
and he voted for Hoover against Roosevelt
and he lost
and then he voted for Alf Landon against Roosevelt
and he lost again
saying, "I don't know what this world is coming to,
now we've got that god damned Red in there again
and the Russians will be in our backyard next!"

I think it was my father who made me decide to
become a bum.
I decided that if a man like that wants to be rich
then I want to be poor.

and I became a bum.
I lived on nickles and dimes and in cheap rooms and
on park benches.
I thought maybe the bums knew something.

but I found out that most of the bums wanted to be
rich too.
they had just failed at that.

so caught between my father and the bums
I had no place to go
and I went there fast and slow.
never voted Republican
never voted.

buried him
like an oddity of the earth
like a hundred thousand oddities
like millions of other oddities,
wasted.