currently manic

anyone who reads this blog probably managed to get here by means of facebook, where you would have also noticed my "favorite quotes" section. i just read over it again and was reminded of how genius and funny and beautiful my friends are. i think i have a favorite quote up there from all of them except marissa (she has too many cool quotes to pick just one ;) anyway, it seriously just warmed my heart and brightened my spirits to remember how i felt when each of those quotes came to life. i love life sometimes.

only in provo

i'm feeling claustrophobic. too many people around me are in love and it's making me sick.

smilesssss

for some reason, i freakin LOVE gnarls barkley. i actually really only listen to one or two of their songs but it's the kind of music (read: good?) that does something to my soul. like the shins! the song "smiling faces" makes me feel particularly warm and fuzzy. i love this lyric:

i wanna be you,
whenever i see you smiling.
cause it's easily one of the hardest things to do.
your worries and fears become your friends,
and they end up smiling at you.

i want to be like that, and maaaaaaannnnnn am i a cheeseball lately or what? xo.

something i just remembered

sometimes i think it's so corny and lame when people do this, but i've had a crazy last few days that have turned out so beautifully. i started building my foundation on the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints when i was about 20. sure, i had a baby testimony from things like girls camp and efy but it was not til i moved to utah and hit rock bottom that i realized a little more about the Atonement and how the gospel works. it takes a lot of work on our part, but at the same time it's incredibly simple and easy. the way is narrow. the path is clear. my sometimes seemingly sandy foundation of 2 years seems to fail me at times when i stop being completely aware of myself and resort to old patterns or behaviors, nothing major but my immature, irreverent little way of living. the last 6 months have been especially tiresome as i'd left my comfort zone and was given a few trials. i pretty much fell apart ever so slowly, seam by seam, day by day, and for a little season forgot who i am and who i want to be. anyway, to get to the point, my eyes have been open these past few days. i've been reminded of how many blessings i've received and how many are in store for me. i've been reminded of the reality of the Atonement of Jesus Christ, how He can make us new creatures and change our hearts if we only let Him. i learned a great lesson about faith recently as i was listening to an efy song. i heard the lyric as this, "faith the size of a sea can do amazing things, amazing things." i thought to myself, thats true. that much faith can do ridiculously AMAZING things. faith can fix the whole world. then the chorus came around again, and i heard the lyric as it really was: "faith the size of a SEED can do amazing things, amazing things." wow. that much faith, as much as small as the dot on this i, can do amazing things. we as humans are capable of changing and moving forward and putting the past totally behind us. nothing can stop us. if we are living like we should, He will guide our good desires and put us to use as instruments in blessing others lives as well as our own. This gospel is perfect, I want you all to know. And even though we aren't perfect all the time (or ever), that's what we're here for, to learn, and men are that they might have JOY. joy is real. we are alive in Christ. and i'm so thankful for that truth and knowledge. i love this gospel and i love you.

hoorah

i like this... yeah. and, george bush said something intelligent? lksjdfnkjsbdnfkjsjdfnk *mind blows up*


"America's immigration system is outdated, unsuited to the needs of our economy and to the values of our country. We should not be content with laws that punish hardworking people and deny businesses willing workers and invite chaos at our border." - George Bush, State of the Union Address, February 5, 2005

At American Apparel, we agreed with the President's call for immigration reform, so why has nothing been done for the last three years?

It's time to give a voice to the voiceless. Businesses are afraid to speak to the media about immigration, frightened of reprisals by government agencies. But we cannot just sit in the shadows and watch the government and politicians exploit and misrepresent this matter to advance their own careers.

Over 12 million human beings have become integral to our society, economy and culture here in the USA, yet they do so in legal purgatory. While no serious political voice calls to send them back to their previous home countries, very few have the courage to admit that the only realistic option is some form of legal immigration, coupled with legitimate forward-thinking immigration policy.

Migration and economic experts generally agree that the productivity and the hard work of immigrants improves the economy, makes goods more affordable and available to US citizens, and creates more jobs for US workers. Immigrants not only increase the wealth of the nation, they have contributed significantly to major scientific, medical, and industrial advertisements, as well as the arts. Many of them have become great entrepreneurs too.

At what point are we going to recognize that the status quo amounts to an apartheid system? At what point will America stop living in a state of denial?

At American Apparel we support our workers. We support our community. We support Los Angeles. We support the pride of America and the American Dream.

Enough is enough.

It's time to Legalize LA, and Legalize the USA.

$2.17, next window plz plz plz plz plz

hiiiiiiiii. lol...... HI FRIENDS. i'm back in provo. and diggin it. since i've been "home" i've, sprained my neck, had a brief affair with a hot nurse, been drugged, got salmonella from a tomato, obsessed over afton, and ate everything i saw because my stomach feels perpetually hungry. anyway, it's sooooooooo good to be back. i'm totally in love with you, happy valley.