today, i worked at borders where i don't know anyone and don't know how to do anything and i don't make any money.
soon, i will watch womens conference by myself.
tomorrow, i will work all day and it will probably go by very slow and the store will be empty and i will probably not have much human contact.
monday, i will go to school and learn about things i don't care about and then i won't do my homework.
then, i will watch movies all day and not talk to anyone. aside from when i come downstairs to eat where a few words will be said to me and i will return a few as well.
everynight, i'll lie awake in bed wondering when life is going to mean something.
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johnny badseeds' life story
wisdom = patience and hope
3 comments:
wow. you're a good lil writer. i will pray for you. long and hard.
I used to work at Barnes and Noble. I thought it would be cool, you know, books, but it was still just a big corporation where we always had to be busy even when there was nothing to do.
sorry you have been feeling a lack of sense of meaning. While i think life is ultimately meaningless (even if there is a god, what does that 'mean'? even if one became a god, and ruled a universe, that doesn't 'mean' anything. it is still just doing a bunch of stuff) I think the feeling of meaningless is a sucky feeling. you should try practicing mindfullness. It will make your life feel richer, more meaningful. http://mentalhealth.about.com/cs/mindandbody/ht/htmindful.htm http://www.mindfulness.com/ I also think the exercises of falun gong which is the same thing as falun dafa can greatly improve the quality of one's life. http://www.falundafa.org/eng/howtolearn.html
oh and, yeah, meaninglessness sucks. i hope life starts meaning something soon.
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